Yesterday, despite the shoulder aches and the stomach cramps, we still manage to drag ourselves all the way to shopper's paradise to sing. I was quite reluctant after having acquainted with my comfy bed and soft pillow. I went anyway since it's been five days, I'd done anything productive or fun.

It's true that ICT can really bring people out of their busy schedules and meet up with old friends. That's the only good thing, the rest just sucked. Contra to popular belief Reservist is not slack at all. It's all the NSF days minus the discipline, just drawing and returning the stores are a pain in the ass. On the other hand, the mentality is different, commanders are slacker now.

Sometimes I feel maybe I'm not cut out to be in this world, where every dog eats every single one.I hate dissappointment, It's one of the worst emotions one can feel. It's an uncomfortable feeling that I can't discard and it's pressing on real hard. I'd always envy those people that can take it and say that they'll do better next time. Even though that's the best thing you can hope for but I'm not one that endorses that doctrine. I don't understand where they get that motivation from, you try and you fail , you try and you fail. Maybe you're just not up to par.